Maybe our mistakes are what make our fate. Without them, what would shape our lives? Perhaps if we never veered off course, we wouldn’t fall in love, or have babies, or be who we are. After all, seasons change. So do cities. People come into your life and people go. But it’s comforting to know the ones you love are always in your heart. And if you’re very lucky, a plane ride away.
-Carrie Bradshaw, Sex in the City
Yes it is 2015 and I am still referencing Sex and the City but I have always felt like the text above spoke to me. My life has been a whirlwind of change from the very start. I am someone who moved around, changed, tried things out to see if they fit (or didn’t), reinvented myself, criticised myself, loved myself…you get the picture. I haven’t sat still for very long. I tried life as a working girl in London, UK. I went to universities in Canada and the USA. I gave life on the sleepy east coast of Canada a try after the hustle and bustle of Toronto wore me out. In fact, of all the places I have lived in my life (USA, Canada, England, France) Paris has been the longest outside of my childhood home. Thus it shouldn’t have come as a surprise that when the date that I would be leaving here became ‘fixed’ that I would feel some pretty crazy emotions about it.
Excitement for our new adventure courses through me but so does melancholy, sadness and fear. There are moments when I feel like my entire life has done nothing but leave a trail of people I love behind me. It becomes increasingly difficult to make plans to see loved ones as they, too, are spread around the world in the wake of my global movement. I know this sounds dramatic but it is also somewhat true. Do I visit friends in Toronto I long to see (hi MOH!)? But if I do that, can I also swing in a 3 hour flight to the west coast to see my brother and his family? What about my other brother and his family in Ottawa? Or my friends on the east coast? If I’m going that far, I also have friends and family in the USA! What about them? Ohhh my head!!
That is where the Carrie Bradshaw quote comes in. You ARE all in my heart and travel with me. We are also a plane/train ride apart. I do find that comforting, even if it has been years since I have seen some of you.
My trail will grow longer when we leave here on the 9th of July but please, don’t for a second think that some part of you isn’t coming with me.
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